I secretly hope nobody ever reads this.

I got a 60 on a research paper I worked incredibly hard on. The thing that bothered me most wasn’t the grade itself, but instead the fact that the teacher wrote “sorry” next to it….SORRY?! REALLY! IF YOUR SO SORRY U CAN CHANGE THE GRADE YAKNOW!!!!

I apologize to anyone who follows my tumblr….its not the most exciting thing in the world.

I feel like one of those hot Asian’s in the movies about cars.

OK. hii to all of you who actually read my posts (love ya). a few, well like only 2, of my friends wrote like “new year” tumblr posts; basically everything that happened in 2010. I know this is a little late for me to be doing this now but BETTER LATE THEN NEVER! thats what I always say….nahh actually I never say that….ANYWAYS it’s time to start,

like most years 2010 started on January 1st…

I rang in the New Years on a beautiful cruise with my family. The rocking of the boat was the most excitement I got from the entire 2 weeks in the caribbean. Not kidding, it was like everything I did I got punished for! trying to get ice cream at 4am, sneaking into the night club, being a bitch….apparently these things are all frowned upon.

February-

This month was filled with rehearsals of the Spring Musical at school that I had been cast in. Even though I only got ensemble and had done the show once before with an actual part, I was still really excited about it! Doing a show makes me feel comfortable and very “in my own world” which is good since I was also at a new school. This month, of course, was also my BIRTHDAY month! I turned 16 and decided to be super cliche` and have a party. - oh and this was also the time when formspring was like HUGE in my life… as soon as invitations went out my formspring blew up. Getting messages like “no one cares about you, nobody is going to youre party!” became an everyday thing for me. - but the party did go on and it was what every sweet sixteener could hope for; with some exceptions of course. And I got hair extensions for the first time!

March-

I started aderal! «< best thing that could have ever happened in my life. This month for the most part was pretty boring. I competed in New York’s Perfect Teen Pageant- I didn’t even place… but it did teach me a lot about the pageant teen pageant world- k you don’t care.

April-

This was the start of my slut phase. I started going out a lot more and became a tiny bit of a mess. I also competed in Miss Teen New York- World Pageant. I made top 10. They told me my evening gown was to mature and I needed o tone my stomach.< whatever.

May- 

Slut phase was continued, but with better hair extensions and a skinnier body. (thank you meds) This month I discovered 4loko. I had always been to scared to try it, because of all the stories I’ve heard.I competed for New England’s Perfect Teen- since New York didn’t work out why not compete in New England right? well I didn’t place, I received the “Miss Congeniality” title. The director of the pageant, however, did email me inviting me to nationals…. I gratefully accepted.

June-

END OF THE SCHOOL YEAR! Literally the best feeling in the world. It was a rough year…although looking back on it, my life is kind of a joke. well at this point in the year my mind was focused on camp. (yes I’m 16 and I go to summer camp) as soon as I finished my last final I was In the car on my way to the most amazing place in the world! I also started the Pretty Little Liars series….nvgiorenbvso

second half of june-

CAMP. first session is not technically camp though. I made tons of new friends from Florida…. and I hu with a cute boy but it didn’t work out. He was just like a little blue bird that needed to fly from the nest ya no?

July- 

2nd session. REAL camp. Being a super this summer was weird, I really hated it actually. I felt like I had a totally different group of friends this year it was strange. The one thing that really made me happy this summer was a boy I met…. this is kind of uncomfortable talking about especially since I met his boiif a few weeks ago….ya I don’t wanna talk about it. And of course I had my little secret on the side ;).

August-

Goodbye home, Hello Florida! I took a trip down south for the America’s Perfect Teen pageant. Although I had a lot of fun my parents didn’t. The pageant was overly sexualized and the all the girls needed was a pole and their looks would have been complete. But never the less I strutted my stuff loving every minute of it! - I placed 45 out of 58 girls AND IM DAMN PROUD.

September-

Wahh. Time for school! This month was a blur in between the cheer practices from hell, dance placement classes, and broadway on broadway…I was sure ready for summer by the end.

October-

Homecoming! The year before I hadn’t gone to the homecoming dance since I had a s16 the same night, but this year I was ready! It was actually really fun, I wore a dress I felt great in, and got to experience a bit of what highschool was about…. which is really dumb if you think about it. I also learned about the types of girls that exist in school…how could I have been so naive.

November-

My life is boring. I competed in Miss East Coast New Jersey. I won Swimwear Supreme which qualifies me to go to nationals which is cool. Thanksgiving happened. yup.

December-

What killed me this month was not being in The Nutcracker at my dance studio. My friends were all in it and I thought for some stupid reason that school work was important junior year and I should really keep my schedule open…dumb. At the end of this month I went on an epic vacation to Miami—-

January-

I’m back to the beginning I rang in the new years as classy as always… ;) 

Looking back on my year I have realized that my life is boring and I really need to step it up! But it’s been fun soo good bye 2010 me hello 2011 me!!

(pageant director’s facebook post)- For anyone striving for facial perfection, or for anyone looking to erase time…this could be your guy. Girls, he offers a 5-minute nosejob…in the office!